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She opened the door and smiled, I said hello and we hugged and we kissed as we walk to the one night that we’ll never forget. She was there at the table having her favorite steak with me looking into her eyes and I walked over and held her hand and said, “Baby, may I?” She replied, “My pleasure.” And so we danced, with her hand placed gently on my shoulder, my heart was filled with warmth and love that instantly brought me up to cloud nine, at that very moment, my eyes was filled with tears. The moment I’ve waited all my life has finally arrived without any notice, I have found the reason to live with no regrets.

Her name is Sarah. That was 1990 and the song over the dance floor was Beautiful Girl by Jose Marie Chan. The song sang the melody of my heart together with her footstep, throughout the whole dance, I couldn’t take my eyes off her captivating brown eyes, her long wavy hair, and that very smile that melts my heart. We held hands as we walked out of the Grand Te’amo, we shared a moment of silence as we both embrace our heartbeat channeled across my hands. Her gentle yet calm heartbeat calmed my nervous soul. Nothing was spoken as we spent a good hour walking around her residence, I simply wished that this will last forever as every moment with her is a moment to die for.

As I penned this down, things have changed and I may never be able to look back at the times we used to have but my love for Sarah grew as if it doesn’t know how to stop. I can still remember the look on her face when she closed the door as we said good bye for the very last time. I could no longer contain my tears and let it flow as it is, it was as if pieces of my shattered heart is slowly flowing out of my eyes to be where she is at. I can’t remember how I walked home on that very day, all I remember is the love of my life has walked away on me.

I have found home, but it was not meant for me and so I’ll go.

With love?

Dear Sandra,

I am not so sure why am I writing this to you but the very moment i set my hands on the pen, I knew that the one in my life is you. I am not sure if you experienced an earthquake before but the world came crashing down on me the moment I saw you. Maybe it was a dream come true?

Remember that time at Sam's? You told me that they have the best espresso ever and I was surprised that we actually have something in common, the espresso. We talked so much that night, I am not surprised that it could be one of the most fulfilling days in my life. I am not sure why it happened but I think we clicked.

I read a book that talks about reincarnation and karma, not a big fan of Buddhism myself but I guess I must have been a very good boy for a few lives in order for me to meet you now. Sometimes I look at the stars above us, seems so close but yet so far, just like us. Though we have a lot in common but nothing has begun, the spark was not there.

Time flies and it has been 5 years since the first day, and you're still as lovely and charming but I bet you never know that my feelings for you grew at the rate of a burning match stick. You must be thinking why do I involve a match stick, are you? I remember you saying that love is like a burning match, it burns in 5 seconds and that's about it. What if I tell you that my love for you grew faster than that but it never seems to stop, even till today.

I have always been shy in expressing my feelings to people I love, I do not know what to say or what to do. Even with hundreds of rehearsal, I failed at the very moment when you appear before my eyes, all I can see is you, no one else but you.

It took me lots of courage to actually set my hands on this piece of paper or memory, countless nights of having you in my dreams, countless days of having you in my thoughts, I thought that this would be a better way for me to share this very secret with you. Despise me for being a coward, but I shall never look at the past and all I look at now is 5 seconds with you, just to say those three words.

A match will not lit on its own, it takes two party to make that 5 seconds to happen and I wish that the 5 seconds will last forever as I believe love freezes time.

With love,
Giocomo

The expiry date #2

The moment he stabbed the knife into her, the pain in her eyes reflecting the pain in his heart. He believes that she does not know the reason of him doing so, in fact, he himself do not know it as well. His tears fell off his cheek onto her face, to show that his love to her is still there, their love did not expire.

As she fell onto the ground, with so much pain to bear, his heart shattered into pieces, the pain they both felt is greater that the physical pain she suffered.

At the very moment when she took her final breath, he carries her up to their bed room, place her in her usual sleeping position. He slept next to her, humming her favorite song as he held her motionless hand tight, he stabbed himself in the heart.

Nobody knows the reason behind his every action, but it is definite that their love did not expire, all that expire is his sanity, he wants her for himself, nobody but himself.

Love is selfish.

The expiry date.

A knife he took from the kitchen, he walks toward her slowly, very slowly and silently, he stabbed her right there in her heart with tears flowing down his cheek.

She looked at him into his eyes, frustrated and angered by his action, what has she done wrong for him to do so, has the love they both shared expired?

She was struggling so hard, she could not let out a scream for the pain piercing through her heart and also her love for him. Moments they shared ran through her minds at that very moment, thinking that was it all an illusion or it is a dream that turned out to be a nightmare.

Remembering the times where she held his hands so tightly, he could hardly let her go. Taking those little walks to the movies and those days where they easily spent the whole afternoon at the park looking at kids with their toys. pigeons with their bread crumbs, and lovers with cupids around.

The pain of having the one she love so much is much greater than the knife stabbing through her heart, she felt hopeless as he did not speak a word as she dies. A simple word, a simple apology, but yet nothing came out his mouth.

Their love expired?

This time, its fate

Armed with his Nikon D90, he walked along the streets of New York, shooting anything that comes into his mind, no one know who he is nor where is he from, all they know that he is a man with dreams. His name is Dominic, he dreams to be a photographer that inspires people who looked at his pictures. He felt that nothing should be in path in pursuing the best and the most inspiring pictures but one day, things changed and he never looked back ever since.

Feeling that today will be his lucky day, Dominic set out to the Central Park with the hope of shooting a series of wonderful pictures, but to his surprise, he found someone special, so special that he couldn’t find any word to describe that feeling that tingles every millimeters of his heart, his heart was beating at an enormous rate, and it happens the moment his focus were on this girl who was passing through the park, eyes met, shot taken, and something happened between them.

Clara was surprised when a man with a camera suddenly appeared before him, without thinking for long; she posed naturally without even thinking, as if it is meant to be like this. Her smiles were so charming that it melts his heart, his concentration caught her attention immediately as if it was like a men standing on the very top of world. The moment their eyes met, it almost felt like its dejavu, as if similar scenes happened before. Something was going on between them and it was definitely a pleasant experience.

Months after the unexpected shoot, Dominic spotted Clara as he flips through The Vogue, and he decided that he need to do something to be closer to this person that shook his world so much, there must be a connection somewhere. And so, Dominic started shooting fashion shoots and accepting jobs from fashion house, just so that he could be a step closer to Clara. He was noted as one of the most promising fashion photographer after a few shootings where he successfully captured the essence, utilizing lightings to enhance the charisma of every piece of fabric, he was the most sought after photographer within months.

Despite the fact that Dominic is one of the most promising photographer in the fashion industry, Clara didn’t know who he was until one day, on a run way, similar scenario, with the same old camera, same old photographer, she was wearing this dress, so elegant, in white, like a princess, she walked according to the beats of the music playing in the background, flashes from camera didn’t not drive her attention away from giving her best to present the dress to the fashion giants, again, their eyes met, she stood still, looking right into his eyes, images of Sir Luther ran through her mind, the pain of having a knife piercing through her body was immediately felt, she was, the Lady, Lady Eliza.

Dominic’s hands were shaking, he couldn’t take a shot, all that he could think of was the woman he loved so much, dying slowly before him, he was helpless, he was alone, but not now, he rushed towards the stage, looked into her eyes, kissed her forehead gently, held her hand, and both of them ran towards the exit, with tears in their eyes but with a smile that never ever lived in their heart before, they set on a journey to a place they called home.

Years later, they were found on this remote island of the Mediterranean sea, doing what they do best, Dominic, as usual, is always roaming around the island looking for that very shot, Clara on the other hand, sat on the sandy beach, savoring every single moment she have with her beloved Dominic. His shots never failed to hit the covers of photography magazines but his heart never failed to shower all his love towards Clara.

They may be five thousand years behind time, but their love shall lives through time till fate brings them together.

Waiting to be heard, begins a new journey down his 27 years of life, not knowing what will happen next, he took out his sword and slain his enemies without a doubt, his name is Luther, he slain more enemies than any other warriors of his age, he walked across the land that took the lives of many soldiers and remained alive. He is the first knight of King Louis VIII and the lover of the king's wife.

He goes by the name of Sir Luther Edwards, Leader of The Order of Silver Blades, he fights like a warrior, slashing those who dares to stand in his ways, King Louis VIII secured lands larger than his with the help of Sir Luther, the kingdom flourishes under sweat and blood of warriors from The Order of Silver Blades but not under the leadership of King Louis VIII.

His last war would be the war that made him who he is today, he led an army of 500, marching through the forbidden forest infested with beasts that fears no man, weather to stop any man from entering, and a graveyard to many brave ones. Luther have to ambush the Marmolians in order to minimize their loses as the King was saying, “My dear Sir Luther, I am unable to give any more men to you as the kingdom couldn’t afford anymore”, Luther managed to ambush the Marmolians by surprise and make them pay with their lives, everytime his army of 500 swings their sword, a Marmolian’s life is taken, like Death, Luther and his army wore black robes with their armors right underneath, they were later known as Knights of Death after their victory where 500 men became heroes but only 369 were left alive to claim their honor, but these 500 heroes claimed the lives of 1260 Marmolians. That very night where blood was shed, life was lost, and men became heroes, was called The Dance of Devil.

Unknown to many, Lady Eliza is the secret lover of Sir Luther, their affair was not known until a servant by the name of Norman found out what happened and reported it to the King. Both Sir Luther and Lady Eliza was summoned to the grand hall by the King. Not knowing what lies before them, they walked side by side with great confidence, but, it is a set up by the King to eliminate his only knight who had gathered more support from the people than the King himself. The moment they stepped into the hall, Sir Luther was beaten to the grown, despite the fierce fight, he was no match for the five men who pinned him down to the floor, Lady Eliza was killed right before his teary eyes, the King stabbed the Lady from the back with blood dripping off the tip of the knife, so was her tears, she was in so much pain but no pain can match the pain she had to endure by departing the man she loves dearly.

The King was not happy with the death of Lady Eliza alone, Sir Luther was stripped of his knighthood, his power, and also his dignity as a knight of The Order of Silver Blade. He was then left in the dungeon where he was fed stall food, sewage water for the rest of his life. He killed himself, moments of the time he had with the Lady went through his mind as he stares into the sky through the very small opening on the wall, he smiled as tears were slowly dripping of his cheeks.

"Today is a glorious day for the students of Ohio States University as for the first time in history, we have a student who scored an average of 4.0 throughout his three years of degree, while scoring well academically, he also exceled in football and helped the team to qualify for the national championship. Ladies and gentlemen, put your hands together for Alexis Matthew."

Alexis Matthew, grew up in an orphanage since birth without knowing who his parents were nor who they were other than this little iron tag hung around his neck when George Jackson of Sunny Orphanage found him on their doorstep. Alexis is a unique child with unknown personalities, sometimes he would hide himself in the room where all the other kids screaming their hearts out in the field, sometimes he plays the grand piano where everyone in the orphanage will sit around him and be mesmerized with those unique melody of his.

His ability to learn is tremendous where he would process everything like a super computer, he never fail to ask what he doesn't understand. Nobody knows how many degree he completed but to date, he completed 7 degrees of different field of studies at the age of 26. He holds a degree in Philosophy, Fine Arts, Musical, Business Management, Financial Economics, Biochemistry, and the latest, Computer Science. He travels from university to university, seeking knowledges that he might be interested but he never attend his graduations as if he was never there.

Today, on a sunny afternoon, Alexis stood tall in the middle of the Big Apple munching on his Meat Ball Marinara Subway sandwich and sipping his favorite Old Joe Espresso. When Tanya Ann bumped into him accidentally, it marks the beginning of his new life and this story........

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The moment I looked into her eyes when she bumped into me at the busy street of New York City, her hazel eyes immediately caught my attention as we looked into each other's eyes. At that moment, I can even hear her heartbeat and then I asked "Are you okay?" while blushing of course, I can never forget her answer as she smiled and said, "I will be fine as long as I am treated to a cup of coffee at Old Joe's". That's how it started, the world and us.

I could feel that she is the one for me without having second thoughts. To my surprise, she never ask of my background or my family, all she cared about is me, and nothing else but me. Every morning, I would wake her up by playing her favorite song, Somewhere Out There by James Ingram with the piano we have in our small apartment, she would sing along the moment she opened her eyes. That's how we start our day in this small apartment, with joy and love everywhere. And by night, I will hug her tight and watch her favorite Sitcom, Friends on the DVDs we bought over the internet. Tanya is a fantastic chef, I love the way her omelets and steak is done. And every time I put them in my mouth, she looks at me with the sweetest smile ever that melts my heart. This is when I realize I would die if she were to leave me.

Like every other morning when Tanya woke up and kisses me on my forehead, she did not know that I had planned something for her, secretly without her knowledge. It has been a week now since I planned the whole scenario. Right after Tanya went out for work, I called up all our friends and met up in our apartment. I gave everyone a stalk for Tanya's favorite blue rose and waited for her at her work place during her lunch break.

We stood outside as she came out of the lift, one by one, our friends walked up to her and pass her their roses, till the very last stalk. I walked up to her and hand her the final rose and proposed to her on both knees.

"Tanya, it has been a while since the day we bumped into each other and now we are here standing and smiling at each other with memories flying through my mind as if it was yesterday. I love the way u kiss me on my forehead when you woke up, love the way you hugged me tight while watching our favorite sitcoms, love the times we held hands as we stroll through the parks and look at the kids play while wishing that they are our's, all the sweet times we had together and now, I believe that we are for each other, and before all our friends here today, Tanya, will you allow me to put this ring on your finger?"

She looked at me with tears flowing off her cheeks and nodded before running towards me. I felt like it is the happiest moment of my life, I have nothing to lose anymore with Tanya in my arms.

As we planned for our little wedding with our friends, me and Tanya went out to the theater to catch this show by "Miracle Happens" and we actually did enjoy the performance even though the story is pretty boring. This movie marks another change in our lives.

Its just two weeks from the wedding at the park and both of us are ready to get married with our friends as our witness. To me, the best wedding gift would be blessings from all our friends and of course, a kiss from the lady herself. Things actually went well, too well in fact that I could sense something coming and it actually bothers me a lot as time goes by.

As Tanya is in deep sleep, I couldn't stand the instability in my mind as I tend to think of my very awkward past. Nobody, even Tanya, knows about my real past, despite my performance in my career and my education, I was never a happy person. My mom was hacked to death right before my eyes when I was just 7 and dad lying on the ground emotionless. I hid under the bed but I could never forget the look on mom's face as she looks at me on the ground, regardless of the pain she is enduring, she looked calm as she believes that I am safe. And now it flashes back into my head, why can't I do something to save them? what can't I turn back time to the wonderful times before?

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Alexis screamed in pain as undesired memories over flowed his head, he couldn't stop hitting the wall with his bare fists. Tanya was awaken by the commotion and she was stunned the moment she saw what happen to Alexis, with blood all over his fists, and forehead, she couldn't hold her tears back and hugged Alexis so tight to prevent him from hurting himself further. However, she was pushed and hit against the wall and passed out.

The moment she wakes up, she couldn't see Alexis in her sight, all that she sees are the friends with a concerned look on their faces. Tanya asked Jeffrey, a close friend of their's on what happened to Alexis, all Jeffrey could do is just hug her tight and tell her that Alexis is now in the Mental hospital for confusion over his past and present. Tanya broke down and insisted on her decision to be by his side, regardless of their situation, for the sake of their love they once promised each other.

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From now on it will be on Tanya's perspective.

I could not remember how many days since Alexis' gone mad but here am I again, standing next to his cubicle playing our favorite song using his guitar, every time he looked at me with those blood filled eyes, all I can feel is the tear deep in my heart because I can no longer see the tenderness and love in his eyes, and all I can see now is pure confusion and madness. I could not stop my tears from falling as I sing, it all seemed to be just a day ago, all the fun, love, and special moments we shared but its gone now.

Again, Alexis is banging his head against the wall, though its cushioned, but every time he banged against the wall, my heart aches. Then again, I left and hoping to see him tomorrow, with hopes that he will recover so that we could go on with the wedding, the wedding that we both anticipated.

Days gone by and I sit quietly outside his cubicle, his hair turned grey, so does mine, without realizing, it has been 10 years now ever since the incident, the love between us did not stop just there but it grew as moments of our past were always in my mind to put a smile on my face.

Well, at least I get to spend my days with him, though its different, but our love will always be there and will never fade away.. till death do us part..